Inside the Bookmark...

I see your smile,

I smell your fragrance,

I sense your presence...

All inside the bookmark.

Never will I forget you,

Never will I give up fighting,

Never will I stop loving you...

It is refreshing to see you every day, that makes me forget all my quandaries.

......

All inside a bookmark.

Sports Day

Our Heroes!

Amazing bananas~

Yesterday was Sports Day. We had an "awesome" time.

It was the first time that I found the boys in my class so mischievous. To be honest, I saw the glimmer of evil on their face when we led the cheer----a kind of sly look on their "innocent" faces----yet we let it be~They played a great prank by carrying our dearest ET(Eric Tan, our form teacher) around in the field. The perversive act was faced with violent struggle: one man in his prime with four boys in their "PRIMER".

The result was a draw: ET pinched xz's leg and "almost" succeeded in pulling down one of the guys' shorts(name confidential:), which followed by acting threateningly towards Weide, the mastermind behind the act of "evil" who was then smiling conspiratorially with WeiKong. And the boys succeeded in carrying such an awesome man for more than twenty yards before succumbing to his struggle and mastery use of his own gravity----a physics soul after all. (Though he might still believe him as a philosophical person, he did not foresee such a trick awaiting him and the LOGIC behind it:)

The FUN LOGIC!

Besides that, ET was "hazed" by the same bunch of extraterrestial creatures after his failed attempt to dismiss us. They draped over him and then crumbled upon him! The scene might seem quite animal-like. That was why it was so endearing!

"Remember to study for Physics test on Monday arh? Three Chapters~"His usual, kind reminder after a typical hilarious scene, betraying some of his pessimistic trait.

That was endearing, too. Bewitching~(ok, I'm exaggerating, xiaoyou or k.k or pc don't think so much--YOU are bewitching, too;)

Off goes ET, here comes Mrs Sabar!

Our heroine of the day!

She ran for class relay, thank goodness!

And we made it to the 3rd place! Bravo!

Bananas yesterday were so nice! And guess what? I went to NTUC to buy bananas after that.(to ensure smooth excretion actually;P)

"Peel banana, peel peel banana..."

Youth----by Samual Ullman

Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life. Youth means a temperamental predominance of courage over timidity of the appetite, for adventure over the love of ease. This often exists in a man of sixty more than a boy of twenty. Nobody grows old merely by a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals.

Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.

Whether sixty or sixteen, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing child-like appetite of what's next, and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station; so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the infinite, so long are you young.

When the aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at twenty, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch the waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at eighty.

Encounter...

A random search on the Internet made me delightfully appalled.

I have never imagined I can have anything to do with Tsing Hua University except that I have been there for once two years ago. Jumping out of China's education system naturally detachs me from everything that would set a senior high school student excited. Even the most prestigious university in China seems so far away from me, physically and mentally. Tsing Hua used to be a dream so far-fetched. I can only be a visit to worship it; and being part of it is virtually holy.

Yet my footprint was left on Tsing Hua website: http://www.ziyuanv.cn/ That is merely amazing.

I have never expected my feeling towards a trip can be perpetuated in this way, remembered by the most prestigious tertiary institution that a high school student can dream of. I have never expected my memory of a school that touches me can be made immort osal.

It is a beautiful encounter.

An encounter that lets a dream burn again. I remembered my previous form teacher asked me,"where will you go if you cannot go to Singapore?"

I remembered my answer.

There are two answers: one blurted out between my lips, one etched in my heart.

My mouth said:"Tsing Hua."

My heart said:"Sure I can make it to Nan Hua."

There is not right or wrong. I have achieved what I used to aspire. That part is great. Yet I also realise the disparity between ambition and reality~

That part is even better...

24th April will be my first Speech Day, on which I will receive the credits for my hardwork in 2008 as well as yet another scholarship. The Day reminds me of my worth, yet the joy is not lasting. However, finding my name on Tsing Hua website really sends my mind reeling.

Is that where my real dream lies?

No matter what the answer may it be, I know the importance of focusing on my current dream: to fulfil a dream left behind by my seniors.

"Change we can believe in."

I will get there!!!For sure!!!

My footprint

http://ziyuanv.cn/ziyuan/f6/717.html

http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_537ce79f0100bznr.html

Riding the Tide

Love is tricky.

It is never mundane or daily.

You can never get used to it.

You have to walk with it, then let it walk with you.

You can never balk.

It moves you like the tide.

It takes you out to sea, then lays you on the beach again.

Today's struggling pain is the foundation for a certain stride through the heavens.

You can run from it but you can never deny it.

"It" means saying no.

----Olivia Bishop

Let Drama live on..

Drama Club rocksssssssss!

We are Sec4s~~

We are used to missing everything we lose, that's the human nature.

Saying goodbye to my drama practice, saying goodbye to dear Mr Ernest, saying goodbye to the cosy drama room scented with paint and ink, saying goodbye to every passionate performer who works together to weave out those amusing and touching short skits.

Saying goodbye to our perspiration-streaked faces after "intensive exercises", saying goodbye to the two soft drink bottles which we use as weights, saying goodbye to our name cards that make up the beautiful "clouds", saying goodbye to Celsius, Yellow Carrot Chocolate, and The Ernest~

Saying goodbye to "sun-tan position", "mermaid position", "tabletop" and the most classic"toilet bowl"~~~

But Drama will live on, Drama will prevail, Drama will shine through, for ever and ever and ever...

Because we are dramatic~~~~~

So we won't cry.

SYF~Hooray~~

Today is SYF Day, people. So without further ado, let's come to the picture time.

Drum beats on... Welcome to our Drama Room~

Get into the drama mood now!

Here comes the Japanese man (Mr Domiwa) with his cute moustache.

And Alvinnnn the Assistant at the Lucky Number Tour....

It's painful right~Lucky yor only got 8 hair pins, I got 18!

The "keipo" neighbour coming our of her bathroom shivering in coldness:D

Alamah! The Coffee Pot lady with a casino girl! What's happening here?

The tigeress----Loan Shark Tina in the making...

And her errand boy Ah Ding emoing~~

Another errand boy Ah Dong is ashamed of showing his face~~

Turn around~~~~~~~

And open your eyes~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Kang Zi Jing!!!

(People, shake your cursor over the picture to get the effect!)

Attention! Here comes the most important and BIMBIM people!!!

Zoom in~~~~~

Welcome to the Merlion Caaaaaaaaaaasiiiiiiiiiiiinooooooooo!!!

With the spicy girl.........

And with my dear Mrs Tan!!!

SYF marks the unofficial ending of my two-year CCA, which has given me a bittersweet memory indeed. It is very hard along the way, yet the way seems so short. As if yesterday I was standing in the drama room with a hat in my hand acting Juliet for the "imprompt section" of the audition, today I am standing at the same place doing my part as a casino hostess. "This is not Las Vegas..."

The performance was superbly done today! Five months' hard work finally came to a whiff of relief as the curtain closed in the mellow music. Right from the beginning of the day, my mind was whirled around the performance that my brain could not take in anything else. For the first time, I cannot wait to get into the drame room to set the MODE right. The first "feeding" started at 9:30am, during which I took high-carbo food and a cup of jelly. Then was the hair-and-make-up session. The professional stylists were super efficient:they did about fifteen hair and make-up within three hours! At the end of the make-up everyone looked so nice and pretty!

The waiting in the dressing room of ACJC was brief and relaxing. Casino girls did our second make-up while having our third "feeding":kaya buns. The time was so limited that we finished our lipstick two minutes before the play started.

Then we were into our roles~

Everyone did a marvelous job. The ethical and controversial side of gambling was wonderfully shown as "numbers" dominated and completely changed Mr Tan's life. Mr and Mrs Tan, Mr and Mrs Domiwa, loan sharks, casino girls, Joey and Alvin, semetery people and funeral people, light and sound people, hair and make-up people, and the trainer Ernest, I really cannot thank you enough for putting so much effort in this play and making it the most memorable period in my school life.

After the performance, we went to PizzaHut to "unwind"~~~

We talked a lot with Joey and Zi Jing, almost showed our "true colours", hahaX :P The "chat&crap" was fun. By the way, I saw Xiao Bin or Yang Fan on the way to PizzaHut coming off Bus 106. I really could not differentiate them...though I guess it was xb.

Great day, people. Enjoy every bit of it.

Fazed~

These days time is spinning like a merry-go-round, I want to keep up with the pace yet find myself dropped behind, want to jump off yet get injured, want to take a breath yet inhale a mouthful of sorrow.

SYF is tomorrow at ACJC. The light and music people finally came today for the rehearsal. We stayed up to 6:30pm standing at the parade square doing runs, changing scenes, pracitising on heels and shouting at the top of the voice. Real dramatic things occurred when three girls broke down in stress, drenched in tears and one girl was overpowered by "heart attack" that led to much commotion. SJAB was summoned and two HODs got panicky.

Chemistry O Level SPA finally finished today. My roller-coaster emotions were finally put to rest, with a grain of salt, though. Staying calm is not always the golden rule, but thank goodness it still aplies favourably on me. This week when three tests popped out undeclared, I narrowly managed to cope quite well.

Focused group discussion(a feedback session) will be held on next Wednesday. Several issues will be discussed so I still have to sort my minds to give some "constructional suggestions". O Level is in 7 months' time, enough for me to grapple with new knowledge, yet not enough for me to get psychologically prepared. A long way to go, and a devious one.

Thank you mum and dad for still being such a great support. There is nothing for you to worry about since I am coping pretty well. From next week onwards I will not have intensed CCA trainings so we can talk "dogs and kids and trips and gardens and sky and moon" again on phone. Please take great care of your health.

The meals at hostel are improving in quality, though I am doing my best to keep down the quantity:P The occasional addition of ice-cream cakes and mango jelly can spice up a day; and today the pineapple was delightfully sour.

Eileen Chang said in her prose," Life is a fabulous robe ladden with fleas."

I agree~

So to reveal the real colour of "life", let's all get moving to remove the fleas.

Life can be a bed of roses, given that friends are there for you.

And you know that they are there~

Forever 402

402'09

302'08

We are 402!

We will always be together~

Class cake!

What we were like one year ago!