See it from afar

There are too many times when I am preoccupied with possessing something: objects in the display window of a fashion boutique, beautiful flowers growing in the garden, pets and people as friends. The desire to possess something gets really strong that sometimes even when I realize such may not be the best way to appreciate their beauty, I continue to be dissatisfied with merely appreciating from afar. There are sudden urges of getting it that compel me to open my wallet, pay for it and get it home, only to discover that when It actually stands on my table, it is less adorable than I thought it was.

And it is not just about the Qatar snowball standing on my desk right now. It's someone precious to me that I could not tolerate the thought of letting go. There are time that I pray hard for a sign or a hint, whether I should press on or let nature take its course. The hint has yet to come: so I will keep waiting and appreciating it from afar, mesmerized.