Determination

It is always easy to promise but hard to carry out promises. What is the worst about it is that when nobody has enough determination to get the promise kept, the whole preamble seems so empty, desolate and futile. That was exactly what I learnt from my Chinese group which I had put so much efforts in but eventually seemed to go wrong.

If we regard attention(one of 6As) as the basic requirement for the studying purpose, I must admit that somebody even fail at the stage of attendance. One lighted match can cause the whole wood to burn, which is known as "chain reaction", so is it applied to teamwork. Last night, I devoted my whole after-dinner time to prepare Chinese comprehension and free-writing composition, only to find out that someone cannot appear in today's group-meeting session. Group leader informed me about the cancellation of the meeting, which was to some extent, extremely disheartening. With O Level examination in ten days, there seems no enough sense of urgency at all.

With《华初文丛》still in my hands, I seemed to lapse into the old state, reading in one-man's world. I cannot understand why some people are still so numb about their impending test, a test that actually counts. I do not know when is the exact time for them to wake up. I only know that my promise to my Chinese teacher seems to be thwarted, if not doomed. To my genuine grievance, there is no determination strong enough to get the whole system working properly. As for my part, I must admit that my own condition was one of the wrongdoings. Not being adamant enough, I cannot ensure a full attendance, which ultimately evolved into a disillutioning cancellation.

Indeed, my post-exam life is not regular enough, which is something for me to take note. One whole week of diving into the wizarding world gave an escape from reality, but led it away too far. Washing clothes, checking e-mails, compiling plans, tidying up rooms as well as updating whiteboard were blown out of my mind. This posed a threat to my commitment to the proposed job, which now triggers great remorse. Thank goodness, today I sorted out some of the entangled knots in my life and was able to go ahead again.

I should always believe that it is never too late to begin. After all, there are still ten days ahead, though I am sure that I have to attend too many things in these ten days. However, I must try to make group activity a priority or the potential regrets will be tremendous. To my great relief, I know that there are so many people working so hard, paying so much efforts to leave no regrets, and to win the first, crucial battle.

It is your first and foremost battle. It is our first, foremost battle, let's all keep the promise and get it running.

What we need is just determination, and that bit of wit.